“In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.”
I'm not myself lately. I see myself doing things and hear voices in my head warning me.
'This is stupid. What are you doing. You know what it actually is. Stop.'
But I do it anyways. I can't help but think that maybe this is what I want, that maybe I just want to push you away. What scares me the most is that I don't know what I feel, if I feel. You're an amazing person, and you've done nothing to deserve my insanity. I can't tell you any of this...You're too smart, and the last thing I want is to hear from you that you know i'm done. I don't know if I am.
It dawned on me that there are little things that bother me, like how he's never placed a photo of us on his profile...or how he'll eat the last ___(insert name of food here) without asking if I wanted it...
Alas, it doesn't matter, does it? He was there for all of my A Capella concerts. He fixed my computer and lovingly *cough* legally obtained *cough* a copy of Windows and MS Office. He glued together my broken earphones and took the heat when his mom tried to make us eat buckwheat for dinner. What more can a girl ask for?
The other day I opened up my fridge looking for some salad dressing and came across a bottle which he claimed he bought last summer. I looked at the expiry date and told him: "I guess we outlasted the salad dressing."
A makeup collection is the perfect boyfriend, here's why:
1. It makes you feel pretty 2. It never cheats on you 3. It keeps your secrets--unless you decide to tell them, no one is going to know how *really* look bare-faced. 4. When you need your space and just want to go commando for a day, it doesn't feel abandoned. 5. It's not jealous - when you buy new products to add to your collection, they happily accept the new members. 6. You always get a positive return on your investment - a good-quality brush will feel as soft on the 365th day as it did on the 1st. 7. You know it's long-term because you've already got a drawer dedicated to makeup in your room.
As with any relationship, there are compromises. So okay, I can't pull off red lipstick. Alright, I can't pair green with purple eyeshadow. But in the end it's all worth it.
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best"--Marilyn Monroe